Today, F1 Japan was held in Suzuka, the result is here. Well who could stop M.Schumacher?
To be honest with you, I loved F1. Most of the races aired on TV after midnight on Sunday night; however, I stayed up and watched all the races before. Now? I don't watch them. Actually, I stopped watching them after May 2nd 1994. The day after Ayrton Senna died. How I can explain this feeling? This is not simple respecting or liking or loving or those types of feelings. I have never met him. Of course, I had seen him on TV for only six years or so after he joined team McLaren. However, the hole in my heart, because of his death, is so huge that nothing can fill it.
I heard the person you are impressed by deeply can be said to be your mirror. Something that he or she has affects you because you have something similar inside you, so they are in concord with each other. Do you agree with this? Well Senna is a sort of my religion. :-) So I will not talk about Senna and myself in the same line. But I have to admit I have a stoic part, I am strict with myself (however I am lazy too), and like isolation more than being in a group, I am selfish etc.
Still, when I see his sorrowful eyes in his photo, an exposed part of my heart is squeezed tightly.
Do you have a mirror of yourself?
I wonder if the trick is to be able to see yourself in only one person. Perhaps my thinking is fragmented, but it seems all mankind is a mirror and it is the underlying current of the soul which resonates beyond what our egos project. To find the connection is what some artists and musicians devote their lives to. A way of providing, on some level, a mirror for the soul to view itself as a whole.
Posted by: robert | Tuesday, October 19, 2004 at 11:47 PM